Making it work, for me

[sweetbabyred]

Sorry Denver for screwing up your message. I'll be polite to H, but won't try to spend time with him until he makes a choice.

In his mind, he's in a relationship with OW and to be with me would be cheating, so he wouldn't do that. We had that conversation back in May about his last OW. And I don't want to be the back up or plan B anyway. I deserve more.

Somehow he thinks it's ok to date/be in a relationship because he said he was confused and wanted a separation to figure things out. At that moment, he considered himself single. I don't think it's right to do so as long as we're married, or at least until he files the papers to get a D.

If we do R, I think we'll also have to agree to disagree. I feel very strongly about this, but can see that we have different beliefs. Perhaps we should have had some conversations about what if's before we got M. Is it more important to be right or to be married? Right now, I'd rather be married, if H chooses to work on things.

As of today, I'm still standing. I'm just going to take it day by day, or perhaps even hour by hour.