Hello again AML. I'm sorry for that quick reply, it was done from my phone. Don't feel bad about the "pity party", we have all been there and you may throw your Self another one in the future, i tend to have one every couple of months!
And it's always easier to hold a flashlight than a mirror but you have done it now and own your part in what's happened. BRAVO, that's one of the hardest things to do but it enables us to identify the parts we would like to improve on in ourselves.
I also suspect that you worked hard in your job to provide for your family so well done on all the promotions etc.
You just took your eye off what meant the most to you and we never know what we have truly until it's gone or nearly out the door.
I took not only my H for granted but my Marriage as well. I made decisions based on what was good for me. My 180 is that there are 3 entities in my marriage - me, h and the relationship and if what I am about to do is not good for all 3 of us then I'm not doing it.
Keep posting here YOU ARE NOT ALONE. This community is here to support you in becoming the best AML you can be and hopefully the person your W wants to stay with but regardless of the outcome you will be a better AML.
Go visit other threads, you'll find people in the same state as you. Many Ws are out of the house. Yours is still there so you have a chance to make the changes right in front of her but you have to do them for YOU!
