AT, I think the hardest dreams for me were also the ones where I was just dreaming of the everyday, boring stuff we used to do. Me waking up early for bootcamp and coming back to bed to cuddle for a bit before H woke up, just stuff like that.

Then I'd wake up to an empty bed and realize that those things might not ever happen again. And I realized that I didn't appreciate those moments as much as I should.

As hard as this has been, I know that if I get another chance with H, I'll never take any of it for granted. That's one of the many things I've learned on this journey.

No matter what, you do have a bright future ahead of you. Keep up the hope, for you and your M.

M36 XH34
M-5 T7
4/11 H confused
5/11 ILYB
6/11 OW discovered
7/11 I move out, OW over
5/12-OW2,done->new EA, but H wont file
9/12 H "best bf ever" to EA/OW3
3/13 H/OW break up
H files 4/13
D 6/18/13