Ultramarathon finish line or hallucinations?

[any chance?]

JB:
I, too, have been away fromt this space for a while. Circumstnances have me coming back on occasion, but mostly I am trying to GAL as much as possible (you win the prize on this one), and trying to move forward as much as possible.

I see some similarities between our sitches these days, so I thought I would tell you I know how you feel. I updated my sitch on a recent post, but the bottom line is that my STBX has been gone for about 14 months, spent several of those in depresssion, seems to have had an OM come and go, and now is working on a new temporary job in a different state. She has been contacting me sporadically, but definately more now than in the past. She talks of being lonely, feeling homeless, feeling alone, how she misses her friends. It is heartbreaking, as you say, to see her learning the hard lessons. I get the vibe that she wants to hear from me, but will pull away if I get too close. I do not initiate most contact, but let her do it as much as possible. Gunny tells me I need to detach more, but I told her from the beginning that I would be there for her, and cannot just cut her out.

She has a major decision to make at the end of this temp job in late December. She can get her old job back here, which she loves, or she can move on elsewhere permannently. It is hard for me to understand what I should do here....it is her decision, and I should not interfere.

The ups and downs are amazing, and hard to watch. Just wanted to tell you that I understand what you are going through on this one. Hang in there, and enjoy the time with your little one.....