Wow AML!
You've certainly been doing some soul searching.
I'm sure it was hard to write all that out.
When I look back on my behaviour, I too can recognise how I didn't cherish the person who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with & took him for granted.

So what are your 180s? GAL plans? I'm sure some vets will help...

How are things w W since w/e?

Don't forget to follow others' threads for ideas.