jks, I feel I got kudos from you since I think what you went through when H moved in with OW was very hard. Thank you!

labug, remove his mixed signals. I'm going to do that. Today I'm going to think a lot about all this excluding him from the pix. Thanks for the tip!

bustingout, HOW ARE UUUU?? ;-) I'm very sad this morning but better. I had my crying moment last night and feel somber now. All part of the healing process.

This morning H didn't show up. I prayed. and thank God he didn't because although I was a sad, I think him being here feels worse. So it's the lesser of two.

My feelings are definitely changing as well as my actions. I can't explain it but i feel so sad yet not depressed. I think I'm better at parenting myself so that I don't go into a downward spiral.

Hoping for a better tomorrow. Aren't we all?


M 42 H 39
T10 (-2yrs separation)
S8 D5
DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA)
Reconciled 6/2013
Separation in works 1/2017