Thank you MrBond **hugs** I did stand up for myself last night when he said I was a bad mother and it gave me much needed energy. He basically said I was not there for our daughter over the past 2 years (during MLC) and this time I have taken the blame and have felt the guilt for this. Yes, I know I made mistakes but I really thought about what I have not done and have done for my daughter over the past 2 years and I have to say, I've been a pretty damn good mom! I did run away from my H, which I deeply regret but I didn't run away from her. So I let him have it last night when he brought it up again, I will NOT let him speak to me that way or say that I am a bad mother EVER again. I know he is saying it out of anger and does not mean it but it doesn't mean I have to take it from him.
He has ignored all the things and time I have spent with her while he was away for work and with his friends over the past 2 years and basically thinks the time and acivities we are doing now is just a "ruse" to "get him back" (I think someone on here said that is probably what he thinks, good call). But I've always been this way with my daughter, always. And I don't plan on changing that now just because he thinks this way.
I still am unsure if it really is an "affair" since it was me who said "I quit" mid April. But we are still under the same roof, have shared the same bed, etc right up until the bomb dropped about the EA end of August (which is now presumably PA). To me it feels like an affair since we are not separated as of yet. I have contacted a lawyer so I can make sure I know what my legal rights are. I do not want to get vindictive, I love him!! Again, not sure if that makes me stupid, but I have to look out for me and my daughter.
