Back to Square One?

[Wendylon]

Thank you very much, MKB, Tumbling and SD for your encouragement. It's really nice knowing that there are people following my sitch. It does feel so supportive. It's amazing how helpful it can be to be part of this board. Thank you again.

Nothing major since yesterday. I always wake up feeling stressed and anxious but then that anxiety dissipates a bit during the day.

This morning's anxiety focused on finances. H is making his way quickly through the value of his mother's house that she left him when she died. I know that that extra income will come to an end and I need to factor it into my thinking. H doesn't think ahead and especially not when it comes to money. I keep complaining to him and to myself that he's irresponsible with money but in a way I am too because I keep failing to accept that H is irresponsible. I keep thinking that he'll change. The fact of the matter is that we live above our means and if I'm being really honest I see that we do that jointly.