I think I see the picnic!

[jks]

Oh wow. I don't know how you're doing it with seeing him so often. I only have to see my H twice a week and that is killer for me.

I get your confusion. I'm going through the same thing with one day I act happy and fine when I see H to see how it will make me feel... then the next I am cold and distant to see how it will make me feel. Neither one makes me feel any better. Because I'm still left walking away without him.

So, how to find balance with this. Not being friends but still being cordial. It's such a hard line to stay behind.

With your H around so much and giving you such confusing signs, I think it is so good for you to set your boundaries and get your space. You NEED it. That is your healing time and he's not allowing you to have it.

Him telling you that he doesn't want you to detach is also his way of stringing you along. Why would he want to lose you when he can have you right where he wants you?

I love the way you've been approaching this. I think you have such a great head on your shoulders and I truly believe that if you continue to pray for the guidance that you need, it will come when it's right. Good for you for being so thoughtful in your actions.

You are a very strong woman. I hope you know that.