Goin' off the rails on a crazy train...

[wishing, hoping]

So happy birthday to me. Cards from the kids yesterday along with a Halloween decoration-a pumpkin candle holder. I love Halloween and so do my kids so it was very special to me.

So today (my actual birthday) I got a happy birthday email at work telling me how much he cared for me and wants to be there for the little things. I didn't respond because I did not want to get sucked in. So to tonight he hands me a beer and says you deserve at least one little drink on your special day. I said thank you and smiled. So I go upstairs to "my room" and see a card sitting on my pillow. Of course it was from H. He wrote about how much he cares for me and how special I am to him. He told me "you have given me so much including two beautiful children" and signed it "best wishes, h xoxo".

So I don't know if he is being sincere or just trying to suck me in so he can have his cake and eat it to. I do NOT want to get back on the roller coaster. So I am remaining detached. I could use some thoughts here.

Thanks!!