Keep breathing...

[mamabird]

I guess I'm not in much of a rush at this point for him to see my side of things. I'm focused on healing right now so we can resume some sort of normalcy in the day to day. And the fact that we are getting along is good, good enough for me to put aside the rest of it for now.

I haven't seen any signs of him wanting to be affectionate. I guess he wasn't that affectionate to begin with. But he would always kiss me goodbye when leaving and that kind of thing. Now, at least he's saying goodbye and saying goodnight. And we watched a movie together last night. He would say we watched a movie while I was rubbing his back, I would say I rubbed his back while we watched the movie. He likes it, it makes him feel better about things, so why not? I feel like he does not want to ML right now, which is fine.

If we can continue to move along like this, without focusing on the past, and both of us watching our behavior, I think that will be progress. Once we can get into some sort of MC we can start dissecting... I do know for sure that arguing about who did what to whom hasn't been working.