Staying off the ride 1 - mixed signals

[Tumbling]

I'm all tangled in my head.
I want to punish H and not contact him.
I want to hail a storm of texts about not caring about me.
I know that's a thought that I can't prove so I am not doing anything. AND I know that sort of over-reaction pushes H away so I am sitting on the blanket humming Abba-Dancing Queen.

ARGH!!!!! I DON'T UNDERSTAND HIM


FRI H text on arrival where he will be for two weeks.
I text him my goodnight early (2100hrs) informing him that I was unwell, temp, chills etc. I didn't expect a reply as he said he doesn't have a signal unless he is at the work site.

SAT H text at 2300hrs saying he'd only just got the text, asked how I was and hoped I was ok. I was asleep

SUN I text H mid morning and said no change, sleeping on and off. I had mini expectations that he would chk on me somehow but he didn't. I text good night and that I was still feeling weird/like hangover at 2300hrs. He text back immediately "good night" nothing about me being ill for 48hrs. I asked how come he could text, was he working? He replied he had a weak signal that comes and goes depending on weather. He ended it "Get well soon".

TODAY - NADA.

I am feeling like a 5yr old who wants some attention.
I didn't text this morning and I know it's a Tumbling Test to see if he is concerned for me. This is so childish.

Is it because I am a girl that I would care about his wellbeing, even if I was away at the other end of the country?

Is it because he's a guy - single focused, big project kicking off today - that I went clean out of his mind this morning when he woke up and hasn't had time yet to check in on me?

But now what?
If H, worrying that I am going to flip my biscuit because he might have done something wrong, is now in avoidant mode, am I to send a txt tonight?

If I send a text then it's all me again and I am back at that horrible place of no ansa which drives me more insane.