I just keep hearing echoes of her words toward me about not fighting, about how she wanted me to chase her up there and camp out on her front porch until I got her back...
She said that? About now?? In your previous post, you indicated that you asked her if there was anything you could do NOW, and that she just responded with confusion. Don't take the "camping" comment out of context. If it was in reference to before, it isn't now. You can't go back in time.
Yes, this was something she said that she HAD expected me to do. That she was so confused that she was met with silence when she left... That she was expecting me to go to these types of lengths to get her back...
She referenced the movie "Last Kiss" and said that was exactly what she thought I'd do... sleep outside her house in the pouring rain for days if that's what it took to get her back... She was shocked that I decided to do nothing of the sort... That instead I just let her go...
I explained that I completely understood why she thought that way. Then I tried to explain (which was probably a mistake) that after she left me, I had to try something new: Listen to her words and actions... She told me she needed time and space, so I gave it to her... She PROVED that she needed that time and space by moving away, so I fought my every instinct to chase her up there... And just tried to LISTEN to her and give her what she was asking for... Time and Space to find herself... to be alone... I explained that I didn't want to be an obstacle to her happiness, that I didn't want to interfere with something that she told me she needed so badly... even though I WANTED so badly to chase her and beg for her to come back...
