Tumbling, Vero, NG, NLW, SS...thank you for coming by. I really have been sitting with this trust issue for the past couple of days.
It didn't hit me so hard before, but now it seems to be coming to the surface. but i also am realizing that because i am not reacting, maybe i am finally detaching.
I make a conscious effort to be friendly with him regarding the kids...i can almost separate that from the sitch. although that is hard too because it requires me to initiate the contact while he is away. And although it is kid driven contact...if i didn't have a strong belief in nurturing their relationship with him, I would let that fade away too. Perhaps when they are older i can let go of this more and it can be driven by them.
Today was a good day. I had two of my girlfriends over and they played with D5 (ballet and makeup!) and then we all had dinner together. was really fun. Even S8 enjoyed it. And it made me realize we are not alone. We are a family with or without H and he is the one missing out on these beautiful moments. And that if it weren't for what happened i would not have met these two girlfriends probably and these lovely times together. I wouldn't have met any of you! and you all have become some of the dearest people in my life.
Take care everyone. Will go and check in on the other threads..
Busting
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home