I'm back, on my own.

[canadianMrs.]

Thank you for the advice. I did go and there were some hard parts (them talking about upcoming family trips) but I don't regret it. H was acting like my best friend, he does this off and on, no predictor when its going to happen. I just enjoy that person in the moment but remind myself not to get upset when he goes away again. I had said I was cycling through some anger/sadness again. I realized I had been withdrawing from friends and family in the last month. Friday night I told myself to put my positive outlook on and guess what, it was a great weekend. Friends seemed to come out of the woodwork. It really showed me you get back what you put out. I also bought the book on Abandonment someone here recommended. I just started it and it already mentions the cycles I had been talkjng about. Its hard, but I have to keep moving forward...thanks for showing me the right path once again