Thanks for checking in ces! I'm trying not to mindread. It really won't do any good at this point. He told me he didn't want to be married anymore. If that doesn't say it all, I don't know what does. I doubt very seriously we can come back from that.
I understand what you mean about being closed off. It's not that I am closing myself off to other people. Have a closed my heart off to my H? Probably? But I am trying to let others support me as I go through this process. It's hard for me to accept help when I'm normally the one fixing things for others. Hopefully I will get there soon.
I will think about this though. I'm trying really hard not to become bitter. I know in order for that to happen, I have to live with an open heart. I'm not sure how long it's going to take for me to get there.
