I thought i let go upon the 3 year anniversary, which was on September 27th. I do much better when the time periods are longer apart.

I actually felt acceptance over that decision. Then i allowed myself to get svcked back in with a couple of meaningless comments, which i twisted to shed some meaning to.

The potential of impending loss of my properties and the change in lifestyle has added even more stress onto me.

I wore blinders for 3 years and now have to face my own consequences. I was led to believe that my family would help me out and that isn't happening. A small amount now would have bought me an additional 2 years before i lose my properties.
My actions, my consequences and my fault for believing.

Thank You,

Ed


Me, 55 W, 36
T, 10 yrs
S-9
M, 8 yrs
1st D-Day, 9-27-2009, With 1st bf, ea/pa
2nd D-Day, 12-5-2009, With her best friends bf, ea/pa
W, AA relapse early 2009-Current
W moved out 2-16-2012
New OM 5-2012