Yesterday we went to thanksgiving dinner at his aunts house. I did my best to be myself but I was so sad it was hard to keep a smile on my face so I just focused on making sure my daughter had a good time. H pretty much ignored me most of the time but did initiate some conversation and I caught him staring and watching me quite often. Saturday night we actually did a puzzle together with our daughter (because my daughter asked) but its mostly stoney silence with each other. It appears my biggest issues are him not thinking right now I deserve a second chance and him being scared to trust me again. Not sure how DBing can help me now. I've read the saying "believe none of what he says and half of what he does" so if he's not talking to me, still going to have a PA relationship and then if he goes away this weekend, I asked him not to - I asked him friday night to step away from her and to take a chance and take the first step - altho I still believe he is going to go, all I can do is wait and see. But if these are his actions, then I have to believe it is over? I'm really struggling on which route to take with the going dark, 180s and GAL. He told me would be pissed if I forced him to leave the house and then the more time he spends at home, the less time he is with her. From what I know of OW, she has no friends so my H is basically her life right now which makes this even more difficult because I feel she will do or say anything to keep him in her life.
