What a day. I don't even know what to make out of this but probably just nothing.
Yesterday I GAL'd and enjoyed that company of my buddy. We had a good time had a few drinks and played some cards with his cousins. It did took away my mind off the sitch even for just a few hours. I felt like the time when I was single and just hanging out with my friends. I felt a little uncomfortable but it was fine, I'm just not used to it. I came home before my W and kids, but when she got home she did ask me if I ate dinner--that was nice of her.
Today, was strange. I think I would count it as a "good sign". We were hanging out in the LR watching TV. D17 had gone out and S13 was in his room.
That left me with S3 and W in LR. We were talking it was nice and the program we were watching finished. So I reached for the TV remote which was near her and for some reason I got really close to her and I gently reached for her face and looked intently in her eyes and I gave her a kiss on the lips! I tried to fight this with all my might but I couldn't. She didn't push me away and I thought she even kissed me back. After the kiss (it's really a peck on the lips), I hugged her and I said I missed you so much! She hugged me back and S3 went near us and she also hugged S3 for about 5 seconds and then she said "Ok". I read that as that's enough. I backed off then we watched the next movie.
Whew, so now I'm more confused than ever! I'm counting this as no big deal but I think it is a good sign and it was probably just a spurt of a moment thing. I'm happy though and on cloud 9 at the moment.
Then an hour after that I left to go to the store and that's where she made a comment about the kids.
Any thoughts?
Newman
me40; W43 M18; T~20 D18; S13 & S3 bomb 5/9/11 EA busted 4/30/12; 9/4/12; 4/29/13; 6/10/13 same OM
Separated 4/1/14
"Even a flicker of light will shine through darkness-12/25/2012"....better days ahead.
