This just feels so strange, like the last 11 years of my life just didn't happen at all?? Not sure why I feel so disassociated from it all, it's like I am watching it from a great distance. I haven't heard from him now since Friday when he said - 'we can be friends in time, like a year maybe but for now no contact except for formalities' this is such a turn around from him wanting to be good friends and go and do stuff together still etc. How can I save our marriage if our contact is zero.....! I know it has only been a few days but it all just doesn't feel like it's happening. I am seeing someone else too right now, he is kind and sweet and loves me, it helps me get through the lonely times but not sure if this is the right thing to be doing? Is is ok to date whilst Db'ing? I want to call H just to say hi, check he is ok too, but I know I can't. I saw a quote today 'I am not going to chase you anymore, if you want to walk out of my life I will hold open the door' and I think it's right isn't it? We cant chase someone, they have to be with us because they want to be. It's just so hard as I feel I am doing nothing right now to save my marriage - I am GAL and not contacting etc but that feels like he will just move further away from me in this time?? Grrrrrrh, sooooooo hard! So, do I continue not to contact him? Do I continue dating? Hope you all having a good day,
