Oh sweetie, I know this is tough stuff. Really tough. You feel as if the rug has been pulled out from under you.
First things first. If you look deep inside you know that what you had wasnt a lie and that the love you had was real and true.
Your h is going through a crisis. Now, I dont think he gets a free pass because he is. He is still responsible for his actions. But, it is HIS crisis, his journey. Your job is to get out of the way and allow him to walk it.
And it is really important for you to go through all the steps you need to in order to get to a place of peace.
You cant skip any steps. Each one is equally important. And you are right where you need to be in the process. We all go through it at our own pace. No right or wrong way.
It is ok to question how you feel. It is also ok to feel as though you deserve better. All part of the process.
You feel what you feel. Process it, feel it and then let it wash over you. Use those feelings to propel you forward.
You have also been given a really important gift. You get to become the person you were meant to be.
And you get the honor of showing your children how to navigate through life's difficulties with dignity, courage and strength.
You are doing wonderfully, BK. You are right where you need to be.
