It's a tough thing to learn and do Sunny, but don't give up, it will get easier as you start to change your thought process. Getting started is the hardest part...
And also, don't be surprised if at first she doesn't seem to care where you go and what you do. They can be experts at ignoring us! But over time, if you start going out on a regular basis and don't fill her in on the details, she will get curious.
To borrow a phrase from you, maybe you should get "dressed to the nine's" next time you go out and not say a word about why. Get some new clothes, put on some cologne, but do NOT ask her how you look.
You can do this. One of the best pieces of advice a friend gave me was to take it day by day. If you focus on yourself and your son, you'll find the days go by much faster.
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."