Slightly hopeful optimist..

[Just A Guy]

Sooooooo last night definitely did not have any expectations but I definitely did feel very down towards the end of the night. I didn't show it and I was the poster boy for happy to lucky. I talked and hung around multiple people and made sure to have a good time.

W and I slow danced a song and it felt amazing. I miss her so much.

More and more I have this underlying feeling that she wants this to be over, but she keeps talking about future plans and ideas. It's sooooooo mixed.
I know people talk about letting go of the rope. How do you all know when your getting to that point?

I don't want to move out, I don't want to leave our bed, but I know I will eventually start to be resentful and mad and I don't want that either. Such crazy emotions this sitch has me going through.