See if you can take advantage of this time with your H being away to regroup. Don't call him and keep reading other people's threads. I'm sure you'll find it helpful to see that many of us are in the same situation. There is always great advice on other people's threads too.
Have you considered taking any anti-depressants/anti-anxiety meds? I last a while off but I was feeling worse and worse and as if I couldn't keep my head above water. I still find the whole process painful but I don't find it unbearable--which is how I started to see it.
Good luck and keep reading and posting!
Me: 51 H: 52 T: 23 yrs M: 19 yrs S18, D16, S14 (special needs) PA: 2003/2004 Piecing: 2004 on Suspect H had EA: 8/2012-12/2012
