Journalling Wednesday night - H and I spoke for the first time since 10 Aug Thursday H drove 450miles for work - txt on arrival, I said thanks for letting me know and that I had enjoyed chatting the night before. He said he had too. Friday H drove 190miles to where he will be working for a couple of weeks. Text on arrival 830am (goodness knows what time he set off). This place has limited coms - middle of nowhere. He said he will only have a phone signal when he's at work but not where he is staying. I know not to have any expectations but this is hard for two reasons:
1) Texting is messaging not two way conversation so it doesn't fulfil my need for connection
2) I could send a text and it won't be answered for ages - this causes me to get insecure and that he is ignoring me (I am working on that).
I think H uses texting as a way of control. I don't think he calls anybody. He communicates with everyone electronically. I much prefer conversations to texting. I would like to speak to H instead of texting. I could handle not hearing from H every day if I knew we were going to speak one evening or something. I don't think it's appropriate to ask for this right now - we've only been text communicating for 10 days. BUT I would like to mention this when he comes back. What do you think?
ME41 H39 T12 M9 Ilybinilwy 10/2010 H moves out 11/2010 H moves in 09/2011 out 11/2011 Try to fix it alone, give up 07/2012 Tumbling to file 02/01/2013 :-) "Strong on the inside, soft on the outside"
