The trust issue is my hardest obstacle, too. If my H can just bail out from our M, forget his promises and vows before God and friends and family, what can I expect in the future if we R?

He's shown me, as yours has, that he can be cruel and heartless. I wonder if we'll always be waiting for the other shoe to drop? It's not a good life when you're afraid to say something or do something or feel some way and wonder if that will trigger spew or worse, abandonment.

I've never been a LBS before this and I wonder if I'd be able to trust any man again?


M:63
H:53
S:41, SS:28, SS:25, SD:23
M:15
T:16

Bomb:12/17/11, "I think we should go our separate ways."
H moves to his mother's house, 4/1/12
12/21/12: H moves back home, piecing