Here's the rub, ss. If my H would decide to attempt R, I'm not sure I want to go back to having those feelings.

But the change has to come from inside me. I am more than a housekeeper, cook, etc. That stuff just gets in the way of the real me.

I must be OK with the real me being enough.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss