best and worse thing to ever go through

[eyesopen]

So after my little mini break from this site I feel pretty good. My mini break from the W didn't go as well, as a our sitch doesn't afford me that time. Although after today I will have a couple of days without having to interact with her.

I was actually at the point where I wanted it to be over. Thinking somehow a D would end the frustration. I think I have a better understanding of what a WAS feels. I feel that going through that has helped me detach a little more. Everyday I fear a D less and less, and once that fear is completely gone, it will probably the time that I will see her coming towards me if it will happen at all.

We have had some positve interactions, chit chat about daily lives and things that don't pertain to the kids. She actually asked what my family thought of all of this. I told her that although they are hurt, they support me, and they want to see our family whole again.

Anyway hope everyone stays strong.