Staying off the ride 1 - mixed signals

[bustingout]

i am love this thread. Tumbling your journaling is thought provoking and i am really going to sit and reflect upon losing myself and why. SS i definitely relate to the losing ourselves in our roles as wives. I know i did almost everything out of what i excepted H to expect. it was so stressful and led to a lot of anger on my part. A lot of resentment.

I admit that growing up i saw very little of what a healthy relationship looks like. Or how a husband and wife treat each other when they are in a loving relationship. So i just assumed i need to be this ideal wife and have the perfect home...i would stress out on stupid/simple decisions.

So glad i can 'see' now.

but yes, getting back to our BEST selves so to speak...i wonder when i lost her...

And i get you Tumbling about H not really having fun with me anymore. Because yes, i always wanted to 'talk'. I did stop being fun. I was so full of resentment and anger and hurt that i became needy and lost my sense of self, self confidence and self worth. That i can see for sure.

Anyway, thank you again. I am going to reread what has been written here.

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