why can't you connect with your MIL and have her see the boys?
MUST your h agree to that, if he does not have to himself?
IMO, your h has a serious problem with forgiveness as he is STILL holding onto abandonment from childhood...oh Good grief, at some point we have to be adults and wipe our slates clean. HIS life would be easier if he let go of that stuff.
I KNOW you screwed up (as if you don't) but what people are missing here is how badly HE is treating you NOW.
What about that? What about today?
How long do you wear the hair shirt?
Geez, get out the stockades...
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016