It's good to feel alive, happy on our own so maybe you are City Girl, SS.
and I see on your thread that City Girl knows what she wants.
Can your H accept City Girl? Can City Girl accept H?

I feel my bestest as adventuresome Canada Girl & she did exist w H until we lived tog (only guy I lived w). I need to work on why she disappears around H as H is currently preferring to hang out w a guy friend who offers adventures...he even described his actions (preferring friend to hanging w me) like being bored w an old toy in June.

Funny thing is, I found H boring too sometimes as he never had ideas of things to do. And when I suggested stuff, he said no & I go without him or sulk. He also said he didn't like doing things just w me as we always 'talked'. Mmmm, there's a 180 in here somewhere.