Hey City Girl! I don't know if we lose ourselves. I remember thinking H was the guy for me cos he loved/accepted me as I was & I felt I didn't need to be anything else. Other guys had been controlling & I felt insecure w them - not pretty/thin enough etc (totally over that hang up now).
I took a year thinking about marrying H (after he asked me) & whether I could give up my 6 yr plan of emigrating & I decided I was ready to be a 'grown up' - marry, mortgage etc.
But I really struggled w keeping a house, cooking, food shopping & the never empty laundry basket. I once said I felt like I had concrete boots on in the reservoir. It was so mundane compared to travelling for 3 mths every yr on my own. And I had this perfect image in my head of how M & a wife was supposed to be & I couldn't live up to it.
I think M didn't live up to either of our expectations but we didn't know what to do about it. I still had my freedoms, I holidayed w g/f for a wk every yr as well as holiday w H but CG went awol.
I had 2 yrs without a R 23-25yrs & that's when I found out who I was. Changed my career (was in finance), moved to UK to go back to uni (masters in marine mgmt) at 29 & met H there. Stayed.
And now I'm in this sitch.
Sorry for long post.
ME41 H39 T12 M9 Ilybinilwy 10/2010 H moves out 11/2010 H moves in 09/2011 out 11/2011 Try to fix it alone, give up 07/2012 Tumbling to file 02/01/2013 :-) "Strong on the inside, soft on the outside"
