I am in the same boat!! It has been 6 months since I found out about OW but H and I have been off and on since until Aug when he moved out. I have 2 Ds and a baby on the way and he just left. I am having an awful time at nights and on weekends. I am thinking the same things as you, what is he doing and WHY is he doing this to our family. This past 2 weeks have been the absolute hardest, as we have had no contact and he has not tried at all to even ask how Im feeling considering Im pregnant. He really has lost his mind. He doesnt care about what stress he has put me in and my kids in. He has never been this selfish in the 20 years I have known him and I cannot seem to get over it. I was on an anti depressant, but had to come off due to pregnancy, so I am having to do this without anything to help me. I am so lonely, even though I have my girls, they are so busy with their friends now. They have taken this way better than I , but they still get to see him (when he feels like seeing them) and they get to talk to him too! I am trying so hard to do for ME and detach, but its been the hardest thing ever! I do agree that this is harder than a death...I would love to chat with you, seems we are feeling the same way...
Sweetbriar goldfish5856@gmail.com
M:36 H:36 D14, D11, Baby due in March M:15 T:18 Met OW: 3/12 H Moved out: 8/12 Legal Sep: 11/5/12