Thanks Tori. I do feel good about my attitude this time. I am using my 40 things to focus on as GAL activities. I like the idea of visualising my life in the future and how I want it to be. BUT I'm going to change it to visualising my self in the future and how I want to be in the first instance.
For me that is about being the person I am when I am in the place I wanted to emigrate to - Canada. I feel really alive there, in touch with me, in the now and I always have "adventures" when I am there. When I returned last summer, after 11 years, I was filled with trepidation that it/I wouldn't be how I remembered. But at the end of my first day I was riding round the downtown area on the back of a Harley when the sun was setting!
My IC and I call the adventurous, positive, yes to anything, carefree, travelling Tumbling - Canada Girl (CG) - and I've come to realise in writing this post that she seems to get lost when I'm in a relationship (not just w H). CG is who H met and she started to disappear from the moment we lived together. I need to think more on reasons why and what I can do to fix that.
I think the PMA I have right now belongs to CG but I'm not exactly in a relationship, am I?
CG knows exactly how to GAL (e.g riding on a Harley etc), she just doesn't seem to be great in relationships... O,I've just realised, CG was kind of around in MAR-JUN when H & I were doing OK/hanging out/no R talk just being...
Tumbling
PS Sorry if I have confused everyone with this side of my personality but I find it interesting that this part of me checks out when I am with someone - she sticks around for my friends tho...
