Cold shower, couple of slaps in the face, a long run, whatever you need to re-focus. You'll be fine. I get that way every time I'm about to go on stage, and it's never as bad as I anticipate it. You're ready for this. Just do it.
BTW, with reference to the pictures? Just pack'em up for her and tell her she can have them coz' you no longer need them.
Freshman Class of 2012
M-49 W-42 1D-10 T 10 YEARS M 9 YEARS EA/MLC 07/2010 Separation 28/05/2012 PA confirmed 31/07/12 W Asked for D 31/07/12 D on and off the table since then
Well, it's here. Last night, W told me that she'd be at "our" house around 1:00 pm today... and she'll be texting me when she leaves central FL to let me know when she's on her way.
Haven't received that text yet... But that hardly matters.
I know that once I leave my office today, I'm about 30 minutes away from seeing her for the first time in months.
I left my house feeling good... It's relatively clean, I've put all the DB/Self-Help stuff in my car so she won't happen upon it, and I'm wearing all new clothes... Things that she's never seen me in... And I think at least I LOOK good today.
How do I feel? Well, like a herd of elephants is sitting on my chest. Like my brain is on a tilt-a-whirl that simply won't stop... Like I'm going to hear a bunch of things that I'd rather not hear...
But I can't do much about that right? I keep reminding myself that nothing I do can change her mind... That nothing she says will hurt any more than the actions she's already taken... And that even when she talks D today, that doesn't mean it's over... That doesn't mean my fight for this R has been in vain... Because I'm a better person than the one she left, and at least THAT part is permanent.
Keep me in your thoughts today and this weekend. I'll need all the positive vibes from the community to keep my head up.
God bless you and your W. I hope that you have a good weekend. And, you're right, the worrying/anticipation is often much worse than the actual experience itself. You will get through this. Keep your head up and high because you've acted as honorably as you could.
i know that feeling, the herd of elephants.. ((( )))
one thing that helped me was to think of it as a long road... this is just one stop on it.. everything does not depend on today... the road keeps going.. just focus on our goals for this one stop.
i will be thinking about you and wishing you well.
Me(f): 51 W: 41 DP:8 M:3 T:10 "W not happy" 7/11 D final: 8/13
Just received a text from W telling me she's here... and my heart is jumping out of my chest... I think I'll stick around work for another 30-45 minutes before heading home... I'd like to have an opportunity to talk with her alone before her friend gets here in a few hours...
Yet another new development: W just texted me to see if I could come home sooner because she's "Not Staying Here" tonight... Meaning she won't be staying at our house this evening...
Never a dull moment.
Might as well bite the bullet and head home now.
Thanks for the well-wishes. Obviously, I'll keep you all updated.
