MKB23, you've gone and are going through a lot. I'll say be patient with your H but also be patient with yourself. Don't pressure yourself to do anything or make decisions, or feel better, or be stronger, etc.
In my case, the IC's made me feel worse. This board has helped me so much more. My IC's only talked about how bad I felt and my possible childhood traumas, and releasing the anger, and stuff that just made me cry. Have you thought about making an appointment with a coach? My coach has helped me be a better person, and she is so positive. Love her.
