Keep breathing...

[mamabird]

My H left his bag of medications (that he keeps hidden) out on the counter before he went on his trip, so I looked to see what was inside because I didn't know what it was.

Some I'm happy about (antidepressants - a very recent development, and a good one, as I think he really needs them), others I'm not so sure about. Of course he blames the need for these medications on me. It looks like he's got uppers to counteract the downers and vice versa. I don't think he's abusing based on the dates on the bottles, but at least one and probably two of these are not being used as they are supposed to be used. Also he keeps them all in a bag under the sink and not in the medicine cabinet which means to me that he wants to hide them.

For the record I didn't find anything that could send us to jail, and I've never noticed him acting funny, but I know I've got to keep an eye on this... his best friend is a psychiatrist, prescribing some, and the rest of it is being prescribed by a friend of the psychiatrist.

I did ask him about these medications a few months ago - maybe in March or April (pre-bomb). His answer to me was "You're just suspicious, because that's the kind of person you are. Sneaky and suspicious." Only recently did I get more of a real answer, but the fact that he answered me this way at the time was and is extremely troubling.