Thank you very much, your words are reassuring. I just wish I wasn't so damn impulsive, esp when it comes to texting! But I've put my sister on notice that she is now my "H" and if I get an impulse to text him she said I could text her instead I wish I could "go dark" and him still live here but I cannot end up on my kitchen floor again in an anxiety attack. I don't see any other way to get my emotions in check. But I have 5-6 days to see what happens but then again if I "let him go" be with OW, maybe he will get a reality check of what he will be missing. Right now he's "cake eating" as I've read on here and also my therapist said this as well. So, the countdown is on to monday/tuesday to see how well I can do. Thanks again for your support and telling me your story as well, sounds like you are being pretty strong. I hope I can get there too.
