Keep breathing...

[mamabird]

Well you don't have to sell me on Retrouvaille. It's up to him to come around I guess. I'm just frustrated. On the surface, nothing seems to making any impact on his thinking, although we have made some slow progress. This state of limbo gets to me every now and then. I don't see how he can stand it.

I am making the changes I need to make. I am working on me. I am not patient and I am starved for love/affection. H knows this and I think he's using it against me a little.

One other thing he keeps saying is that he thinks my motivations are not sincere. I know the only way to fix this is with time and consistent changes. Hard to keep my motivation up when I'm being sh!t on constantly tho. You guys have all said my expectations are way too high so I guess I just need to remember that and focus on the crumbs that H throws me when it pleases him.

Anyone have any ideas for a good way to deal with this? The ML was helping wih that but now I'm afraid to go there with him. He's made it clear he does not want me coming on to him. Maybe if I'm patient enough he will approach me which gives me the opportunity to say no.