Hi all. I'm in denial that my marriage is over, it's like I don't see any hope but I can't believe it. And it's been 2 months since H told me he wanted to end this, said he didn't love me anymore and he cheated. And I cried, begged, promised to change. I didn't do a good job. Then I bought DR book, read it once. H is staying in a different city now, possibly still seeing another person. We saw each other twice after he moved out, once he came over, once I went there. The beginning of each meeting was nice but i ended up saying a few things I wasn't supposed to say according to the book. He lied to me so much now I feel like. He said he was going to end the affair, said he was going to come back, but right after he said that, he deleted me from his facebook. And now, we are not contacting each other at all. I don't see how I could turn things around, and I feel lost. I have dreams about him so often now I feel so sad when I wake up. We are married for 5 years, dated 2 years. I feel like I pushed him so far away that I don't know if anything else would save our marriage. And I feel like such a bad wife. I'm only 25, sometimes I feel like maybe he's right, we married too young, but I did love him and he did love me....
I hope I could get some advices from here...you are all so strong in this saving marriage thing, this is really so hard.
