"I guess that is all for now...my head is muddy feeling and I think it is time to take a nap."
A nice long 6 month nap. Wow, is all I can say. You are doing great. You are in a position and place where you can say what you are feeling or what is worrying you. And there may be anger or frustration on both parts, but that is SO much better than NOTHING. What I would give to be there.
