Of course you're exhausted! You react to everything she says and you don't think it out and you don't wait to hear the advice from the board before you act on it. It doesn't help to get advice after you've done the deed. Stop reacting to whatever she says! Don't say anything and don't do anything. If she gets mad.....she gets mad, so what? You act like you're sitting on a hot stove.
You are at the point that you are taking what's crazy and trying to make it sound like DB.
What can you do to get your mind and emotions to just take a rest for a few days? You need it badly. You've got to learn how to do nothing. You panic b/c you think it has to be resolved (whatever it the issue may be at that moment) in a few minutes. And in cases like this....you open you big mouth and tell her something and then find out that was not the best choice.
Find some duct tape and put over your mouth.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
