Zooland, The Trials and Tribulations Of...

[Zoo]

Hey All,

For those of you who asked, GIFTS is not one of my LL's...but, when I receive a gift I do want that gift to have SOME thought given to it. I also feel that if asked SPECIFICALLY for what I want then the gift should fit in with what I have said or with the list that I have given (does that make sense?). Receiving gifts makes me uncomfortable to some extent...I'm not sure WHY but it seems like I have always been that way. Since I am also not the most tactful person in the world I tend to let the giver know that I don't care for the gift if such is the case.

H and I discussed this in detail when we first got together. The most feasible solution we came up with was for me to give him a list, noting the things that I preferred the most. This has served well for the most part but H has pretty much gotten me everything that I have put on my lists over the past few years...actually, he got me all my BIG wish items last year in his efforts to COVER UP his indiscretions. I guess I basically felt put on the spot when asked for a list AFTER telling H I only wanted ONE thing

I don't think it helped any that lately H and I have been having communication problems and in trying to rectify those H told me that when he says something, what he says is EXACTLY what he means He has told me this repeatedly the past few weeks, I guess because my experience tells me that is more the exception to the rule then the rule itself. It finally sinks in, so when H told me that he didn't really put any thought into the gift BUT had put a great deal of thought into what HE wanted...well, that just didn't go over well

H asked me yesterday if I was disappointed by what he gave me. I told him yes, at first I was pretty disappointed but that it was growing on me the more I looked at it. I told him that his telling me he didn't put but 5 min. thought into hadn't helped. He then tells me " Hon, I was just JOKING when I said that! It took me quite a while to decide what I wanted to give you." AAAARRGHHHHH!

Can you see the insanity???

We did have a good weekend, spent a great deal of quality time together. I made one tiny slip-up yesterday...I had a seizure while we were at Wal-mart and I apologized for it before I realized it. This is something I know H really hates for me to do, he says it is stupid to apologise for something I have no control over. I later told him that it embarrased ME when that happened in a public place and I wondered if he might feel the same.

Hugz,
Zoo