Absolutely AJ. It still baffles me as to why someone would treat their spouse on the verge of harassment if they were the ones that wanted out in the first place. It really is like pouring salt on open wounds.
I find that Im going through some grieving at times. I feel like Im doing well for the most part. But inbetween the MLC antics of XH, I still grieve in spurts I guess you could say.
Last night my girls left to stay with him and I cried all night. I also watched Fireproof, a movie I've wanted to see for a long time but never get quiet time to see. If anyone hasn't seen it I highly recommend it! I swear it could've been the script between XH and myself as so many other people. It really pressed a button on me because that is so much what my dream was.... to hve a reconcillation as they did. Not the drama of it all, but really learning what real love is, understanding how to apply that to your marrige, and recommitting.
But onward I go. I can never see that happening. He's too far gone.
