My Most Important Week Yet

[chatterbug]

I think your half right.

Never think of yourself as only a fool would leave or does not deserve.

People will do bad things to hurt you. It is not always out of hate or love or with spite or with malice.

Sometimes people are just selfish or messed up or just don't give a rats ass.

You may never know why she did what she did. You just know she did it.

That is something you need to work on and understand as well.

Sometimes things happen for no reason what so ever.

It is up to you to decide if there should be a lesson or growth.

Your thoughts are still based around what I posted to you way back on my first post to you.

HER PROBLEM = COMPLAINT = YOU CHANGE SOLUTION

If she said she is coming home this weekend.

This would remain in play.

She would have a few weeks of ML and letting you all touchy freely around her and then she would shut it all down again.

See you are sitting around spinning your wheels trying to figure out how to show her you have changed. How to show her your a new man. Better than some i-4 reject who wishes they were from windermere instead of metro west.

But you see.

You are better. You just need some confidence in yourself. I struggle with this as well. We do not give ourselves enough credit.

See you improved yourself. But you cannot give yourself that credit. So you pretend its because of your wife.

You applied yourself at work during the most difficult time of your life.

You have carried the high path in this fight. So wear that with pride.

You should be proud of your accomplishments to date.

They are the beginning foundations of shaping you into an even better man.

So take that fear you have in your gut and get a good memory of your marriage in your mind and get a bad memory of your marriage in your mind.

Only you can control the conversation you want to have.

IF you say you lost weight.

Then wear some tight fitting clothing.

You have been doing the gal.

There is your conversations. Offer carrots of gal. She will nibble. Offer her conversations with some mystery of the experiences she missed due to her choices.

Tried a new mix drink at a club.

Slide it into the conversation.

If you get side tracked and want to go melty man. Talk about a new cuban place that opened up. Or some new part of town you visited that was amazing.

Or a long run or what ever.

But keep it completely void of anything with substance.

She will offer you more about her life in a conversation like that than any questions will ever answer.

If that is your goal.