Acceptance - My next challenge.

[Arsene]

I'm having a really hard day today. I really feel the loss of the friendship that my W used to provide. It seems that the few friends I have here are too busy with their own lives to spend any time with me and I haven't been able to forge new friendships. I've been to a few Toastmasters meetings and that has been a nice break and perhaps, in the long run I can see making friends there but for now, I feel very lonely and as busy as I try to keep myself (and believe me I do and I am), when I find myself home alone, I feel it even more.

I guess as much as I thought I was getting better, I am still dependent on other human beings for some level of happiness. All other attempts at GAL are stalled, waiting for things to take place. Everything takes so much longer around here. I first spoke to the president of the 4 X 4 club over a month ago, texted him twice since, and still no news as to when the next meeting will be.

Last night after the Toastmasters meeting, instead of coming home to go online, I went to a cafe, hoping to meet people but being a foreigner in this place makes you unapproachable it seems. Even one of my friends was telling me last night (on FB chat) that her friends are afraid to meet me because they don't speak English well.

To top this off, I'm not rolling in money either so GAL is restricted to free or cheap stuff.

At the meeting last night I won a ticket to attend some comedy act on Saturday afternoon. I hate to do this while my D8 is home alone (with the maid) but I'll do it just to see if I can meet other people, or at least keep my mind off things.

Don't worry, I'm sure I'll bounce back up.