hope you are good! those feelings inside are scary things. i'm still doin battle with the feelings of rejection. also the self worth thing. most days are good, some arent so good.
its good you are pushing yourself. thats the only way to know what you can do. sometimes you have to get so close to breaking to find out that you are only bending. kinda like when you draw an arrow in a bow. you pull really hard, feeling like you cant do it. then it hits its let off and there is that calm..right before you let the arrow loose on its target. then it is all action. im tryin to get to the letoff point. where i can relaz for a bit. then im gonna be the arrow!
you dont sound crazy! lol or else i am too. next time you have cricle time let me know. i could go for some mumbo jumbo! lol
