H and I have moved from 3 word texts to short text exchanges. I don't care for these much as I like live conversation but hey.
Today he text about having a meal together tomorrow night at our local restaurant. He said he would really like to but will have to see how he gets on re preparing for his trip (leaves Thursday now) and is "a bit nervous of seeing" me.
I wish I had the DB answers book to everything he text/says. I replied that I understood about being nervous. That I felt nervous too but it would be good to see him and catch up.
I do not have any expectations and I sure don't want to talk about our relationship status.
I am not sure if I am "detached" but what I do know is I am not attached to the "he must come back" outcome. I wish things were different and we had never got to this situation but I know I'll be ok whatever happens. I don't need H. I don't want any more limbo swinging. I don't want to get divorced but I won't hang around if our marriage is no more than an option to him. I am through with the ride.
ME41 H39 T12 M9 Ilybinilwy 10/2010 H moves out 11/2010 H moves in 09/2011 out 11/2011 Try to fix it alone, give up 07/2012 Tumbling to file 02/01/2013 :-) "Strong on the inside, soft on the outside"
