i have stepped back into more darkness.. first i saw everything as her fault, then all as my fault, now i am seeing both of our roles.. but since i was most recently blaming myself, being more honest about things STBXW did, especially during the break-up, brings up some anger, confusion and disappointment, and i do not want to interact with her from that place...you have a tougher time due to your beautiful children.

NG- yes i understand this. especially the seeing both our roles statement, and the anger, confusion, and disappointment during the break-up.

Yes, i have to keep in balance the kids..and when the wave of panic comes i try and remember that i only interact with him for that. to be honest, otherwise...i don't think i would at all.

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TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home