i have stepped back into more darkness.. first i saw everything as her fault, then all as my fault, now i am seeing both of our roles.. but since i was most recently blaming myself, being more honest about things STBXW did, especially during the break-up, brings up some anger, confusion and disappointment, and i do not want to interact with her from that place...you have a tougher time due to your beautiful children.
NG- yes i understand this. especially the seeing both our roles statement, and the anger, confusion, and disappointment during the break-up.
Yes, i have to keep in balance the kids..and when the wave of panic comes i try and remember that i only interact with him for that. to be honest, otherwise...i don't think i would at all.
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TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home