Journaling a bit- Nothing much to report. Today is Tuesday so that means he will stay here tonight with the kids while I go for school. Normally, I cook dinner and everything. I have decided not to do that this time. He can decide what they would like and cook. I really just don't have time today. There are several options in there for them. I reread much of DR again last night. I have read it so many times it is curling up and in bad shape. It was interesting though- last time I had written my goals in the back of the book. So it was weird to look back on them and compare them to today. I also rewrote my goals so they weren't so vague. Going to continue doing what I am doing. It seems to be working. I think. Who knows really. It is agonizingly slow. Would be nice to have some sort of idea what is going through his head but I don't dare ask. I suppose I will just use the positive interactions as reinforcement. My anxiety is still up there pretty high. I guess that is just part of it and I need to accept it and try to deal with it anyway. I keep feeling like something is about to happen. I know that sounds weird. I can't explain it. Otherwise, things are pretty good. GAL ing. For me, I pretty much had a full life away with school and everything. So not sure what else I can do really. Although, I am taking more care with my appearance and trying to lose some weight. 12 pounds gone! Yay! I haven't been getting the physical exercise I need to. Perhaps that will be my next thing. Give me an outlet for all this anxiety. I feel like I could run a marathon at this point. Just really can't sit still. So I dunno. Hope all is well here. I'm keeping on, keeping on. Act as if. Truth be told-still faking it. Sigh.
